wax idiotic

I don't understand apparently.


I thought when you love someone that you want to do what to can to make them happy, not the other way around. Why intentionally make me feel worse? I had a shitty fucking day of getting up early, getting fitted for a rent-a-cop uniform that makes me feel awful, riding the t, and barely ate. I thought I would at least get a good night by seeing Marc. But apparently I'm not more important than hanging out with his buddies.

I understand, every other time, when you ditch me for them. But when you called I was crying, and pretty upset about this whole job situation, and all I wanted from you was maybe a couple hours this evening just to make me feel better. Well, I guess that your friend coming over is more important. Don't make loose plans with me, then ditch on them for new plans you just made today. It is possible to get the jerseys, and drop off Gabe's, and still see me.. but if all you want to do is talk to me like a piece of shit, then fuck it. It's not worth it to me. And it's one thing to tell me you can't see me kindly, but it's quite another when you talk down to me, and react to my disappointment like a parent scolding a child. Why can't you just say to me, "I'm sorry honey, but it turns out I can't come down tonight, I gotta deal with the jerseys, and Joe's around so he was gonna hang out." Don't be such an asshole about it, and maybe I won't be a bitch.



I'm just tired of the one person that should be there for me when I need them, ridicules me for it.



I did need you tonight Marc...





Thanks a lot.