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It really sucks when you feel an attraction toward someone you're not allowed to. In the past this has seemed to be a downfall of mine. I always seem to meet the right guy, at the wrong time, and he is always friends with someone that would be mad if I dated them. It is always a shit situation, with no options but to keep my mouth shut, or make a move and lose friends. It happened a few years ago, and I'm still suffering the repercussions. Too bad even in our mid twenties no one is mature enough to sit back and let their friends be happy. Don't get me wrong, no one has said directly, "I will be mad.", but it's to be assumed..

I'm not in any rush, at all.. but I wish I could even let the person know of my interest. It's an impossible crush, one that I honestly hope never comes to fruition. It would cause more problems for others, and I'm not selfish enough to do that to my friends.

I know this is a very vague post, but it would kind of defeat the purpose if I were specific..






I'm gonna go drink more.
Hopefully I can get out of here tonight and hang out with a friend that I think needs some company, especially after having to deal with his mother.. xo