re-re-rewritten

if you... yeah you, happen to read this..


I'm not attracted to you anymore.

The drunk off your ass, independent, "do you own thing man" isn't cute to me anymore.. it stopped being cute a while ago. You're a great guy, just obviously not for me. Should've just stayed friends. Yeah if we hooked up a couple times then nothing more, whatever, but a relationship was a bad move on both our parts. In fact, I felt a bit rushed back then. "I call you my girlfriend to people at work.." was too soon for me. So, it fell apart.. nothing more to do. I want to be friends, but not right this second. If you can just bail on someone you care about that fast, who knows what you do to friends. I'm avoiding the drama by staying away when you're there, which is a mother fucking shame considering you live with one of my best friends. Now me and him have to deal. If you had gone about it in a nicer way, this wouldn't have had to happen, and we could all be chillin by the pool bar, having a beer and laughing at stupid shit.

It's really too bad... I was hoping to be one of the few people to actually stay around. You don't have many stable people in your life, and girlfriend or not, I was glad to be there for you. I would have been happy just to be a friend..
Oh well..