i hate when your cheeks hurt from not crying.

fucking circles. that's all i've been traveling in for years. so tired of this ridiculous bullshit. i try, so goddamn hard, and it's like i did nothing at all. perhaps had i not made any effort i'd still be desired, but no.. like a moron i tiptoed right into the fucking quicksand. i moved slow, but when i got there i fell hard.. and it's like he just left me there. i thought we were headed to the same place, looking for the same thing.. and i ended up alone and with a little bit less of my heart to give than before.



as much as i say i'm going to stop trying, i know deep down i never will. i'll get my heart broken again and again, and that'll be my ruin. i'm an idiot for love, and as careful as i can try to be, i'm too foolish to protect myself.






sage francis.. you put how i feel so well...

Sage Francis

Broken Wings
(verse 1)

She glides but just seems like she floats
And these folks decide to crush her wings until they're permanently broke
She rides gusts of wind just by the way she spoke
She crys but loves to sing songs of freedom and hope
On the eastside hustling discussing things that we quote
In shallow conversations as if we have deep throats
We choke on our confusion
Not sure if it's a heat stroke or if we need coats
Trading in our cheap jokes for her C notes
I see notes being passed
I ask to see what these creeps wrote
Define silly kids and flying privileges revoked
Ski slopes have been blocked off they can't chance it
Had weights tied to her ankles she most definitely cant skip
Down, she's held down by the transcripts my hands grip
Tried to tie her wings back on before they're once again clipped
Panic stricken, she'll remain stuck
On a titantic sinking, shes trying to stay up
Change her plan thinking it's OK
See this is strange but
Abraham Lincoln freed the slaves in a way that kept them chained up
I'd like to see
Her take flight into the stars
Instead of letting her fly free they keep her in jars
Instead of letting 'em fly free they keep 'em in jars
I put my hand to the glass so hard that
It might break the prison bars
It isn't hard to see why they keep her captive
Shes naturally attractive
Speaks with adlibs, shes uncommonly talented
Ain't enough adjectives to do her disposition justice
Kids are wishing for just a kiss and its a mission to touch her lips
They can't trust her with
Freedom of movement thats a chance to lose her quick
If she ups and splits
We might as well call that discussion quits
They have ways to keep her down the government's underlings
Enslave people in this town especially if their culture's rich
Exploiting talents making her do a bunch of tricks
With the rest of the wingless imports
Repeatedly told you aint a fairy, you just a bitch